... or so says Robert Burns in "To a mouse, on turning her up in her nest with the plough". Burns says "The best laid schemes of mice and men go often askew, and leave us nothing but grief and pain, for promised joy!"
I can relate to the first portion of that line for indeed plans "have gone askew" for me in the last day, but I do think we are responsible for our own attitude of joy... to my way of thinking, we can never be left with "nothing but grief and pain" unless we allow it. While grief and pain may very well occur in our mortal lives, there is a higher joy that we can subscribe to.... while happiness comes and goes, this joy remains a constant in our lives.
That being as it may, I'm more on the level of disappointed after seeing my surgeon yesterday. I guess I had pretty much decided that I could adapt where my right shoulder is concerned, and that all the plans I've been making for the gardens this year would progress albeit a bit slower than in the past. The doctor, in discussing my situation, said one thing that really caught my ear.... that being "are you done?". When asked to elaborate, he basically said, "have you accomplished all the things you want to in your life?" What he was saying was that I could settle for the way things are and basically probably get worse as time goes on, or I could have the surgery as soon as possible before things regress to it's not being a possibility.
Normally I wouldn't think twice about having surgery, but I've had two other doctors in the past year tell me that other needed procedures were way too risky as I have had, and am extremely prone to pulmonary emboli. However... I am not done, "I've only just begun"! I have an awful lot of plans for the gardens and they will just have to be put on hold for awhile. Depending what happens in the surgery, recovery will be six weeks to a year. Since I'm unable to have an MRI, the six weeks is only if they can't repair and will be limited to cleaning up my shoulder and bicep tendon.... the longer period relates to how involved a repair job they can do.
All that's left is to decide how long I'll risk waiting for the surgery... there is a tremendous amount of work to do in the gardens in spring and I'll at least wait until that is done. Since I find change invigorating, I'm ok with all this and also excited about the possibility of my shoulder becoming more usable once again!
That said, I thought I'd share our lovely almost spring weather with you! These photos were taken this morning... it could be worse... my sister in Vermont got two feet of new snow on the weekend! Again, it's all in how you frame it... just think of all the wonderful moisture that will be available to the gardens when spring does arrive! Take care, Larry
March 9th snowstorm
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| Helebore garden |
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| Conifer garden |
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| Daffodil and hemerocallis bed |
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| Gazebo |
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| Birch walk to barn |
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| Daffodils by the end of March?... Hmmm |
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